I think I have blogged more not that I ever had in the rest of my mortal life.

It's kinda of strange to come back to this plain white page and write down everything that is/was going on. I used to think this was kind of a journal thing that I would come back to someday and think about what I was thinking about when I was younger and how I was feeling. This is gonna happen in about 40-50 years and me, being an old cat lady, will sit there laughing while being groomed by my hundred and some odd cats. Quite the scene don't you think? Me and my cats sitting and laughing in an cynical, devastatingly sick way. Well seeing as cats cannot laugh it would only be me laughing, but I'm pretty sure my vocal chords could conjure enough noise for all of us.

I think that's enough about cats for the time being. Really they are quite amazing! If you don't have one you should try it out.

I love how if i left myself in front of the computer for so long I would have about 10 pages of how I am or weird little stories about my day. I figured I should skip all of that for now? Maybe ill come back later and write till my hands fall off and start playing the piano. Weird. I love retro music, its so peaceful and up-beat.

my cat is giving me this very concerned look. I'm not sure if its wanting food or actually concerned about me? I should be concerned about myself actually. This is the reason why I came to this place again. I fear I have no heart.

Really....I asked my friend today and he could not give me a strait answer. I think its true that I have no heart. Dang. Well I mean there is good reason to think this. I was going out with this dude that I liked for quite some time and then Just today we decided to call it quits. (I still really like him, but there's nothing I can do about it. Family problems) So I never really got upset or anything...I was more worried about how my friends would take it and hoping that I wouldn't get the "I'm so Sorry" Thing or the "So are you okay?" I swear I am okay, but I don't understand why.... This thought is really haunting me. My other friend who is in love with him thinks I am manically depressed about the whole situation and I am going through denial as he read of the rest of the "symptoms" I could not relate at all. I have no idea whats going down inside my brain, but I'm sure that its probably not a good thing. Well at least this guy and I can be friends?

Anyway, That's that!

So I found a Dracula buddy today. He said he would come over and watch it with me and then whip my brother into shape (this guy is my Brothers friend) he's super cool and junk though, very nice, but very odd....Anyways so now I am waiting for Thursday to watch it. I am SO excited for it! I've been waiting ever since I bought it!

Oh this Song is so awesome and is a really good listen, it is called Sweet Marie by The Anniversary. Here are the lyrics:


Sweet Marie, there's a hole where your heart should be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony
Sweet Marie, there's a hole where your heart should be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony

What beautiful lies you've been told
What terrible truths drown your soul
She hides behind all my lies

Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need to be loved
Oh you need all my love tonight - all my love

Sweet Marie, how cold your body can be
And on the hill she's begging for a harmony
Such a beautiful kiss in the face of fear
Such a beautiful song burns through your ears
She hides behind all my lies


Anyways I need some sleep before my eyes glaze over and fall out. My cat also wants to sleep so Ill do her a favour for once.