This break has been intense.

No lies.

So intense that I almost exploded.

Either way it was super fun and kinda really worth it! Okay so the first parts of it were kinda lame because I was working pretty much every day. After that work long hump I started hanging out with people and junk which was really sweet. The first day of chilling and junk was nice I went to Divine and bought a poncho which is the best thing I have ever worn in my life, its super comfy and pretty and I bought these other clothes which are kinda sweet, but easily not as good.

So after this whole shopping escapade which was nice we came back to my place to chill and junk and ordered some pizza, but it was really quite amusing because they could not get our pizza right to save their lives. So we got a free pizza (although it was wrong) it was quite delicious, but personally pineapple and pizza just do not mix, its like chocolate and tea, very VERY Wrong.

"I can't wait for you to shut me up"
-Shut me up (Original Version)

That song is super awesome... and should be found and listening to many times over and over again. Just to let you know.

Anyways so after this pizza thing we decided to go shopping again which was pure torture because I am completely in love with clothing and pretty much freak out about anything that looks pretty. This time when we went out I decided not to bring my debit card, which was excruciatingly painful. We ended up going to the mall and my buddy bought two shirts and two undershirts which look super awesome, I feel good because I picked one of them out! Anyways so we were leaving the mall around 9ish and I got a telephone call from my mother asking us to come and visit her at the house we are most likely going to be moving into and its haunted so we stayed with her for a bit and then she gave us some money for yum yums. When we got home we went right back to the off sale and bought some Smirnoff and went right back home. Oh Wait I totally have my nights mixed up. I should probably fix this.

Okay so this thing I was just describing is the second day of freedom. The first I just had some girlfriends over and we have some of the Vanilla Absolute I had and we all (except one of us) got piss drunk and fucked around all night which brings me to another point I have in this Blog. I figured I should remember this one because its so messed up. Either way I was taking care of (Nickname L) L in the bathroom because she decided she would go their so I followed becuase I felt bad because I pressured her into drinking as much as she did. Anyways She was lying on the floor of the bathroom and I bent over her to see if she was okay, but I looked at her and then I tried to get up but I could not because every time I would sit up I would get very dizzy. So I just ended up leaning over her and she started saying something and kissing my face and then sooner of later we just ended up making out on the bathroom floor. I know its super greasy, and I feel bad about it. I'm not a lesbian though because I could never imagine... well I'm just not and could never be one.
I was just super pleased that she was so cool about the whole thing! We both worked together the next day and had a sleepover the other night which is a whole other story that I will be telling very quickly, but before so I don't remember what I was going to say.

I hate Pineapple. Like I have this intense loathing for it

Either way I got drunk twice over the break which was super fun and totally worth it because I really had fun. Both Nights intense stuff happened although I am kinda repeating myself... I hate that there is school tomorrow and that I have to work at four, and I think that's too soon and then I have a chemistry exam Tuesday. At least I have some Sweet tunes.

Anyways about my days: they were fun the first night my older brother farted on my friend which was quite embarrassing and gross. I was so piss drunk and I could not figure out what was going on. I slept by my buddy's butt which was kinda weird, but I guess I got to sleep on a bed which was nice! Although I was really cold, but I bought this nice new poncho and it kept me warm which was nice.

I have decided that I will not write about my other night because It will take to long I've already written about it in my diary! I'm kinda happy I did that already because I am super lazy and I work tomorrow.

Haha Valentines day bust!

I think this is my very first back to back! I just wanted to say that Hes really not that into you was really good! It has some really sweet reasoning behind it which make sense and are really funny! Either way the horrific sarcastic humor was great.

anyways Another day another dollar (work was lame and slow) and I failed at halo too....DANG! Either way tomorrow will be better for work and for play! I plan on doing lots of stuff (after six of course)

"Life is like a box of chocolates"
- GUMP

I don't know why I just quoted Forrest Gump, but I just felt like it so leave it!

P.S. yes I do know that movies are underlined I felt like it would be cooler to make them BOLD instead (cooler, yes?)


You know what? I never made a blog about my first date! As horrendous as it was I still should have written something about it. I'm quite surprised at myself because I personally love to blog and make jokes about my own life, especially this whole "first Date" thing because that in itself was a joke! Maybe I should read a little more carefully before I write anything because I can quite carefully recall a certain instance were wrote down the date of my first date. Now that I think back on it its quite hilarious because I mean really, the guy was awesome, but the show he put on was very lame. Seriously (I'm going to be VERY disgusting for a moment) open mouthed kissing, or wait, choking me with his humongous tongue and no gag reflex on the first date!? first DATE?! I though that was kinda extreme because to tell you the truth, getting someones tongue shoved into your larynx when you are not expecting it makes you a little unhappy. I'm not sure to this day why I did not stop it. At least the movies and couches were nice?

Now that I think back on that whole incident, I ask myself: Why did I let him use my uvula as a boxing bag for his tongue? Once again I must comment on my amazing skill to be passive when needed. I still don't get why that boy has to eye fuck me in class, he should really mind his own business! (well I mean the eye-screwing is really non-sexual due to the fact that he is happily ina relationship)

This reminds me of a terrible story about English class and this boy since this is the only class we share together along with another boy. So this one boy we will call him Bryce and the Other boy We will call him K, anyways, Bryce and I decided to work together on an English project and the second we shoved our desks together a loud shout from K came saying "Oh look at the lovebirds". Lovebirds? Lovebirds?! Now this I do not get, so I diregarded the comment and with one sharp look in his direction I turned swiftly to the teacher. (Before trouble found me of course) So our class was moved into the library for the day and I decided to look for a book first, but to my mistake we were supposed to be on the computers. Lowe and behold the computers Bryce and I are sitting at have made some new friends, but of course on my side. So both groups (Bryce and I and K's) are sitting nect to each other with myself sitting RIGHT NEXT TO K. Which turns out to be the worst thing that could have happend! Every time I would make jokes or speak of something I prefered I would hear little whispers (sometimes not so graceful) from K's seat. Also every once in awhile a nice smashing on my keyboard or exiting of the program I was in with the nice "Alt f4" method. For an entire HOUR I had to put up with K's foolishness, but that made me realize that he is the MOST immature boy I have ever met and is not boyfriend material no matter which way you look at him. (Unless of course you are looking for a quick anger bang, then you are in luck!)

Ha - HA - HA - HA!

Charlene you make my life! Yes I am very scared of you and I cannot help it, you are way to conservative, but I do with I could talk to you easily. Oh well I think We will always have this awkwardness about our relationship, but seriously I prefer it.

So I told Mr. Friend guy about my apologies to this lady, but I still haven't told the one person I quite want to (But Secretly I think its for reaction) I need someone with somewhat human reactions to what I do. Either way I haven't been able to say what I want to so I am kinda getting bored and annoyed.

THAT'S ONE BIG PROBLEM!
This place is so boring I don't know what to do... I need something to happen or at least bring in a little excitement, besides the garbage I get everyday from the G man. SO I do think something has to go down soonish because my life is so dull. Especially during this break because I need more people around me because being alone with such conservative people all the time with boyfriends/girlfriends is just becoming so lame! At least at school I get to fuck around with people.

Either way I get to make over a guy and make him look handsome and pretty and hopefully datable because I remember I was once told that him and girls just do not mesh! He was going to date his best friend, but that ended in complete and utter failure, so I plan on changing that.

I have a Bottle of absolute and I don't know when to use it. JUST NEED SOMETHING I feel even lame writing this because I mean I really have nothing. Fuck.
I am having a St. patties day party which will be good! about thirty-two people will come which is nice oh yeah plus more....dang so Many....

I hope everyone had a lovely Valentines day!

Why don't guys have to be hardcore anymore? Its kinda lame to think of what women settle for these days? Messed.

But you've got me.

Another long time before I have written which is kinda bad because I like to write every once in awhile...its a tiny bit of a guilty pleasure although I hate the though of thinking what I write is being judged somewhere, I mean usually by me later of course.
Would it be sick if someone could talk to you and tell you everything you knew about yourself and was able to regurgitate everything you've ever wanted or kept as a secret even from yourself. I think that's pretty sick if you ever meet someone like that.

I was speaking with my friend the other day about certain problems and he was able to say everything I though and wanted to think, but it seems I've left all those beliefs behind and now agree with more deranged filthy ways. It was almost nauseating listening to him yell at me for not standing behind myself. Kinda wrong when you cannot back yourself up huh... I couldn't even tell him what I was thinking at the moments when I completely abandoned them and it make me sick to think that I cannot think for myself. MESSED UP! It felt almost like an elephant and mouse or parent and child...

I only have three classes this semester: bio, chem and English. Its quite nice and I don't like school in general so its nice to sleep in extra.

So speaking with my little brother today felt like a chore... He seems to be finding more peace with my friends rather than me. I'm pretty much obsolete now which is kinda awkward I feel a little bit hollow, or even like I've lost an arm. Maybe I cant help him anymore? Sometimes I think my friends like him more than me, which would be completely understandable since I've become unsociable because I don't feel like being around everyone who's paired off (which is pretty much everyone) and if I hang around the other people the couples seem to find us because they are bored with their own coupled schedule's... Man I think I'm way to harsh on couples, but really there are way to many... its pretty disturbing. Maybe I should just calm down and let them be? I should worry about myself, focus on homework and stuff... People don't really need me to have fun. I've totally been acting like a child its ridiculous.
I guess on a blog your supposed to voice your opinion so I just did, but I always regret it. I think while writing what I did I contemplated deleting it 3 or more times..... I know who will end up reading it and stuff....

Feels good.


Some nice time passing songs :

Your winter - Sister Hazel
As lovers go - Dashboard Confessions
Changes - Butterfly Boucher/ David Bowie

P.S. I watched this Anime called Ouran Highschool Host club which was fantastic! Episode 22 is the best...




HAHAHAHAHA :

Well they encourage your complete cooperation,
Send you roses when they think you need to smile.
I can't control myself because I don't know how,
And they love me for it honestly, I'll be here for a while.

So give them blood, blood, gallons of the stuff!
Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough.
So give them blood, blood, blood.
Grab a glass because there's going to be a flood!

- BLOOD

Reminds me of Sunday Morning....