I'm pretty sure conditions of this summer have not improved.
Although I do have less hours at the hell hole that is superstore, I really think I'm allergic to something in the store because I am always crying for the first hour or so of my shift.

I'm thinking slamming my head into a wall wont do me any good. Its such a boring lame summer. It is kinda like last years except this time I don't want anything! Its driving me completely bonkers. I'm thinking, If I quit my job and go underground for a couple weeks maybe then I will be better? I don't know. Damn.
I kinda don't care anymore. Theres nothing to care for, I cannot wait to get out of this place. It has become more of a cage than a home.

" I've been a lonely one I've had this whole world Drained from me"

Anyways. I think I've ranted enough for today.

Slowly going crazy hahaha....ehhh

Fuck life....Holy shit....

I think everything was good at the start of the summer, but it all got fucked up....REALLY
New job, sucks (for reasons I'm not even gonna get into)
AUGH okay I'm going crazy I think. I don't know what to do! Frick okay I guess I kinda do....I hope things can work themselves out before I explode...Holy I don't think I've ever been this fucked before Really! I cannot imagine a time...too much stress really I should distress myself?
Yeah thats what I'll do. I'm thinking I'm gonna quit my job because it sucks so bad and then I am just gonna let loose for the rest of the summer. Maybe get a job with one shift a week in a small little place where i don't have to care about anything. I'm gonna drink iced tea until I cannot stop peeing and I am going to watch every movie that I own. and rent some. And TALK to the whores at the corner store. Yes I like that idea better. Oh I'm also gonna go to as many shows as I can.
that sounds Like a way better summer instead of this messed up thing I have going right now..

I also think I might buy some things and start painting?
Maybe things will turn out alright?
I hope.....Sheesh.