100th post....

I though this would be some weird monumental moment, but I don't feel any different.... I think its just because of the current situation I'm in....I think I should explain better to keep from further questioning. So I should tell of the whole day dating back to friday! Woot? Anyways I ask my male friend to call me up about hanging out this weekend (since I am the who ALWAYS has to call) So he said he would and pinky swore (really thats important). So I was expecting a call around 7ish, maybe a little bit later, but who would complain! So it ended up being 9pm so my friend decided we should do something, and that we did! Jammed out to some 80's tunes in really freaky costumes. Best thing ever! So we where minding our own buisness and then it started creeping up around 10pm so I got kinda worried that he wouldn't call so then my little bro rings me up and tells me I should wait until tomorrow to call (I also got the same advice from a BERRY good friend). I guess that wasn't good enough for some people? I got a call around 10:10 about how my other friend cannot even STAND me anymore becuase I decided i wouldn't call tonight, but tomorrow. Then I was held up practically "if you dont call....I WILL" and I cannot put this past him, I know he would call! So I decided to call and low and behold he answered the phone and soon after it "died" well I mean I got a hello and then maybe the signal failed or something so I called back and then It went strait to the message machine and then Another friend tried him and same thing happend. Well without the "hello"....So they figured they should ALL come over and keep me company? They were all really drunk (except for me and 2 other people) it was quite akward and weird cause I got molested practically and evil glared for about 2 hours...I really hate mixed emotions... So in their intoxicated state they decided to watch Cannibal Holocaust which is super pervy and weird. They were in the other room and I'm just chillin here and mulling out to some tunes.

I don't know why this always has to happen? Maybe I should toughen up and be more aggressive, I tend to be way to passive. AUGHH Its so angering! Why should people get mad at me for not doing something I plan on doing LATER!? why! Its not their relationship! You think when somebody says "I'll stay out of it and give advice" you think that means what it says! But no it has to be something more along the lines of "This is my relationship too! I need you to do this, this, and this!" WHY!

Im going to call him tomorrow still....I don't know why, but I am....

I think this whole thing is really overated. I have no clue why I would purposfully torture myself like this! This whole situation is driving me bonkers! I think Josh was completely right. Why is he always right? Maybe hes not? I don't know!

I think I don't know enough! This whole thing feels like a tug-a-war with me as the rope. Its fucked up. Quite painful too I might add!


Those faces are so awesome and make sense!