So today is the day of the midterms.... Math and then physics, I can't help but feel unprepared.

I have been studying for 2 weeks now and there just seems to be so much I don't know. I've been so stressed with things other than school; although, studying at school has been helping me a lot even though it does stress me out too. I think mildly less than at home though so that's good. At least after these midterms are done I am very comfortable with my other two especially since they are separated by a day.

I just need midterms to be over so I can focus on what's bothering me a lot, or just drink heavily until I forget about it or just don't care as much anymore! I should really start running or something so I have time to think about these things and then leave them there so I can forget about them during my "actual" day.

I should just be relaxed and forget about it.

This is miserable. I need less stress right now! I'm glad I got all that stuff over with though, I think if I had my secrets still it would have been even worse for me. I should let this garbage take the backseat right now and maybe for a few more months. Sometimes I just can't help myself, I think once curiosity sets in you just want it so bad it consumes you. Very unfair.

Either way on a lighter note: Black Keys are awesome! Here are the lyrics to my favorite right now:

Tell me where you're goin',
What is goin' wrong,
I felt you leavin',
Before you'd even gone,
Hold me now,
Or never, ever,
Hold me again,
No more talk,
Could take me from this,
Pain I'm in,
Pain I'm in,

See the moonlight shinin',
On your window pane,
See it leave you,
As faithful as it came,
Please yourself,
So you don't have to,
Be afraid,
Make amends,
Or carry on another way,
Another way,
Oh~oh,

Tell me what you were thinkin',
To treat somebody so,
The care he took,
The lengths to which he'd go,
The coals are hot,
To walk across,
Without your shoes,
But in the end,
Know that you've got nothing to lose,
Nothin' to lose,
Oh~oh, oh~oh

T- 3 hours until my exam! crap!