Imm aaa weeeiirrrdoooo! what the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here.
I don't care if It hurts. I want to have control. I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.
I want you to noooottiiicee when I'm not around.
your so fucking special, I wish I was special! BUT I'M A CREEP

I like Radio head.

SHHHHEsSSEESssessss Runninnning out the dooooooorr!!!! Shes Runninnnning out she Run RUUUUN URUUUUUUUUUN RUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHNNNNNAAAAANNNNN!!!!! RUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHNNNNAAAAAAAANNNHHHHHHHH. Whatever makes you happy. whatever you want. Your so fucking special. I wish I was special. But I'm a creep.


Man I was totally just rocking that right there. and It was glorious! I'm not gonna lie I think Karma has gotten used to my awful being. Now I know I am going to hell! I wish I believed or could believe in that. lucky I don't. I just got a new kitten at my dads house and her name is Mina, she is very cute and nice to Cuddle with, but nothing on this earth could match Callie; I love her. Anyways I had a very uneventful week (outside my head) so it was really good and fine. Like normal? I don't know my moms not so much angry at me anymore, but I think I might have aroused her anger once more so I don't know what to do besides clean.

I have been molested literally in history by homework. So many assignments and now a midterm? I don't know what to do, but I do know it is causing me plenty of stress on top of everything.

Tomorrow I get to go to a football game with the lovely couple and it will be fun, but I lied so bad to everyone and I cannot help it, but I love to soo much. I should learn to control myself and probably learn how to deal with things. I have learned to accept their relationship! Though the grueling hours spent with them will reek havoc on my mind I know I can survive and just deal with it all since that is what I am best at!

So I am excited to finally use my new camera and take pics of the football team which will be great experience!